one of those days

do you ever have one of those days? where the world just seems to have shifted right out from under your feet, and all you can think to do is laugh?

My heart aches, a round pain that seems to set every fiber of my body into motion with exahusting hurt and mortifying exhaustion.

Usually, I would be crippled by this depression, but today I feel like I am walking on air. Even though I know that I am hurting, I have made a decision. A decision to be okay with not being okay.

Last night, when I made this discovery, I was talking to a friend. I had gone over to her house at around seven and after she put her daughter to bed, we made dinner and talked over hash browns and sausage. I stayed until nearly 11:00, and even that was not enough time.

To be with her, to be able to talk about everything and know she understood was priceless. Those moments are things that I want to hold onto forever, just freeze them away and take them out again any time I'm feeling like there's no way out.