(over)joy

as we speak, or rather, as I speak, i am waiting to decide what i will do with my future.
it's like someone just handed me a big box tied with a red ribbon.
i knew it was mine before, but now!
it's like i have this canvas, and i can choose exactly how i want to fill it.
i could go to Rome!!!
I've been given an opportunity to stay in a house in Rome, which would give me a great opportunity to see the world, and to take pictures!!!!
no more am i stuck where i don't want to be, fit into a place where things have to be a certain way.
I could load up my suitcase tomorrow and head for Rome, Italy!!
The idea both exhilarates and terrifies me. I would leave my family and everything i know and just wander off to some place that speaks a totally different language!
But i have to start some time, i might as well take whatever opportunity I have and run with it!
and it wouldn't even have to be this year if i didn't want to. I could take some photography and art classes, do a little more school and be at home, and then I'm off!!

And this is me, flying.
I literally feel like i am not even touching the ground. People could be around me, i might be inside a building but I am flying. The passion that I feel every time i talk about it is so intense that I secretly think I transfer it to others who happen to be listening. It's like they catch the disease, this incurable thing that has taken me over.
it is my purpose, my destiny, and I must follow!